WHAT AM I DOING?

Have you ever asked yourself the question: "What am I doing?"  You thought you were doing what you needed to do and were supposed to be doing, but somehow the more you did, the less you accomplished.  Some reluctance in your spirit about various areas in your life has really been the thing that has stalled some of the very things that you have been working on.  The reluctance has been that you believed that your life would play out differently than what it actually has, so you've had to regroup, reassess and come from a different angle than what you originally planned. You find yourself being angry at God for all the things that you thought he was going to do, work out within a specific time frame, the people you thought he would deliver, the places you thought he was going to take you.  So now, you are uncomfortable in the place you've landed and trying to figure what do I do now with myself?

Some of you are mothers, have been wives, in the ministry or serving in a ministry and things have not quite panned out like you thought.  Now you are single and feel as if you are undirected in your purpose because you thought your purpose was tied to who you were connected with.  I certainly can and do identify with all of that.  Believing that your purpose is tied to the person you were connected with is common with married, now single women and it sometimes stalls our lives for many years and some of us never quite can get it together because we believe that it is over with the marriage. 

I have been talking about purpose and destiny in my last couple of post because I'm in a season of transition.  When transition occurs in our lives and we are in a holding pattern waiting on God to give instructions because so many things in our lives have shifted, it can be and is a difficult place.  Nobody likes to wait and we all want answers right now.  Unfortunately, they do not always come when we would like to hear them.  When you call he will answer, but it may not be when you are expecting or wanting to hear an answer.  The word of the Lord tells us that Daniel prayed for an answer and was persistent before God for 21 days before receiving a word from the Lord.  Although, God heard him the first time that he called, the answer did not come right away.  Sometimes when we are waiting on an answer and it does not come when we want, we either give up or we decide we know what's best.  That's a mistake.  Persistence and faith go hand in hand.  If you are to obtain anything from the Lord you must believe that he is God and that he is a rewarder of them who diligently seek him.  In other words, God will answer and give you what you need and want when he says its time.

You remember the old song, "You can't hurry God, you just have to wait, trust him and give him time, no matter how long it takes".  We found that Daniel's situation was not that God was hard of hearing or refused to give him an answer, not even that God withheld the answer from him, but that there was a war in the heavenlies with Arc Angel Michael and one of the princes of this world which delayed the word that God wanted to deliver to Daniel.  We can trust that God will always give us a response whether it's yes or no concerning a matter. 

If you are in a holding pattern right now and trying to figure out what you are doing, then just wait upon the Lord.  Don't jump into anything until he does give you an answer.  Be guided by your spirit.  You cannot make decisions with your heart, your emotions, or your flesh.  All of that will lead you down a path that you don't want to be on.  There is a small voice inside of you, the Holyghost, who will lead you into all truth and tell you all things that is in the mind and heart of the Father.  If we would learn to trust that and not our own intellect, then we will certainly be walking in the path that God has carved out for us.